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Name: Sharon
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Thank you for teaching me the meaning of love. <3
Sometimes I tend to forget the beauty of what I have, just how lucky I am. I am so incredibly fortunate to receive such grace for the times I've taken things for granted...Thank you so much Lord for surrounding my life with such love, with such kindness and with such care. I am truly, truly blessed...there are so many other situations I could be in now, but He's given me this one.
Then why aren't you making the most of it?
Lord, give me the strength to make the most of it.
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| Dr. Kim is officially my hero.
I didn't realize why he sounded so familiar until I remembered we watched a movie on him in my BMB class. He basically smuggled TB drugs from Harvard Med to treat patients who couldnt afford them, and lucky for him (and his patients), the results were worth it :)
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| ...I'm going to miss these long breaks. Part of me sort of wishes I could be a normal college student and have these crazy long vacations for a couple more years, but eh, whatever. There will be new experiences in the allotted time instead, and I'll make up for it by making the most of what I have :]
I seriously can't wait to get this MCAT business over with. It was definitely poor planning on my part to schedule it RIGHT before school starts, but I doubt I would have been ready any earlier. Wahh...we'll see how it goes >__< Countdown...12 more days...and then...
...last year at PSU?! And I thought it was fast that the people in the grade above me are becoming upperclassmen...am I going to be ready for this change? Thank goodness I have people I can talk to who are going through it now, so I guess it won't be as big as a difference as it could be. One thing I CAN count on is it being somewhat relieved and HOPEFULLY) less burdened (eh...although I'm bound to do something crazy to mess with my schedule -__-') when I go back to school. Freshman year definitely showed me a lot in terms of what I can/should and cannot/should not do. Fall = Immunology and sociology, going back to my research lab, listening in on seminars again and APARTMENT... Which reminds me...there are still a ton of things of organize/pack o_O
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Haha...btw...thank goodness you other xanga users are updating. It's motivated me to update, so this entry is thanks to you :) Note to self: keep updating regularly! Memories are indeed persistent, but sometimes ways of thinking are not.
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It's when you are faced with a long stretch of time and many distractions that you forget the beauty of just sitting around and having NOTHING to do--nothing demanded of you, at least. I always tell myself there's going to be time for that later....hence, procrastination T__T. Sigh...I need to forget later and just do it. Also, if only I had more time to spend with people :( Its been awesome seeing people again after a year of college. Although there are definitely differences, somethings never change. <3
Next summer, hopefully I'll be able to conquer that list of books I've been meaning to read, act painfully domesticated, and spend time with people I've known better than anyone else. I can't decide whether or not its lucky or unlucky that a lot of opportunities open up for sophomores...
ok, back to MCAT studying....>__>
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| and new me?
Even though its already 12 days after new years, I do think a reflection on the past year is needed and necessary. Better late than never, and now, better before classes get intense than afterwards, right? ^__^'' is it really 2009 already? exactly 12 months ago, I had just finished the PCC talent show. I was in high school. My future still rested on eggshells. I was in the comfort of family, friends I saw everyday, regular extra curriculars…here’s part of my new years entry from last year:
reflectionslooking back on this past year...i can't believe its been just half a year since the end of junior year. wow. so much HAS happened
you know that feeling when time seems simultaneously pass by so slowly, yet so quickly? i turn around and i'm like WHOA i'm a senior. but at the same time, the person i was jan 1st of 2007 does not seem like the person i am now. <--i could say the same things now. its just been a half year since the end of senior year?! danggg
highlights from 2007 included:
first SO competition!, working at RUTGERS, becoming a senior, spending WAY too much time at the library, getting my license, then getting into a car crash T__T, organic chem at columbia, coming to terms with some facts of reality , getting a xanga again, first concert (chris tomlin ^__^), realizing God is in control. always, CALIFORNIA!!!, meeting a LOT of new people + re-aquainting myself with a LOT of people...
AND I FINISHED APPLYING TO COLLEGES!!
Resolutions?
-spend more time with people. build up friendships and create good memories. accomplished ^__^
-more time with God <--I realized…you can never have too much time with God :]
-MANAGE TIME WISELY eh…
-GET IN SHAPE. seriously. i really really really need to start running. i miss that energy i got from it...right now i'm a lazy bum -__- ehhh…………………..it sort of improved, but not really ^__^’’
-take better care of myself eehhhhhhhhhhhhhhh……
-get a job proctoring?
here are some more abstract, but still important things:
-seize the day and HAVE FUN i think i accomplished this :]
-well, while i'm at it, pass midterms. get into college :) haha…accomplished ;)
-make my parents proud i think so?
-think RATIONALLY LOL….this is a bit ironic. accomplished…somewhat?
OH and
-learn chinese YES
-learn to oil paint no :(
-sew a dress. a NICE dress YES
-sew clothes :D aka use my sewing machine YES
-play piano again not really :(
-hm. learn to snowboard XD?? haha eh..maybe. but def go skiiingg :) didn’t get to do this either :/ i WILL learn eventually.
Note: in terms of resolutions, I actually think I did pretty well (surprisingly o__O). ok, at least at the abstract stuff. at least 50% accomplished? :P
and now for 2008.
i feel like 2008 could be split into 2...the high school half, and then the college half. college really, really changes things. in comparison to last year's things, this year i...
-got rejected, got accepted, got WAITLISTED and went through such hair-pulling to end up where i am now. haha….its funny how things work out…(sometimes i still have some hair pulling xD)
-um…graduated from hs? went to college like 2 weeks later? not that that’s big at all…:P
-went to my 2nd SO competition and loved it so enough to write the test for this year's!
-SENIOR TRIP. grad parties. beach trips. NYC trips. omg i <33 you guys
-decided i'm not driving for a while, and therefore, walked from the hs to the princeton library. biked from my house to shoprite…multiple times. went wandering randomly
-NO MORE APs! Instead, much more college exams, and for real this time o__O
-ORGANIC CHEM!
-got a credit card! registered for an apartment! scheduled! sat in on courses I didn’t register for…^__^' proctored exams! played tennis from 9 – 11pm. was not in my room multiple times at 3am.
-listened to really really interesting seminars…thank you science seminars xD
-<3 AACF
-went to a psu football game!
-realized the glories of a hard drive
-went to houston! and FRANCE!!!!! AHH!!!
-what? almost a month for winter break? :D
-met many many new people. many types, many kinds, mostly asian though, unfortunately T__T
-met up again with hs people during and after the first semester at college  . also, re-aquainted myself with a LOT of people, some faces i haven’t seen in 8 years. thank you facebook :]
-let go, only to realize why i held on in the first place, and waded in waters i vowed never to dip my feet in. complicated? yes. regrets? no, but...its a slow process
-understood what it meant to be 'home'
- and i'm still slowly figuring out who i want to be...
In retrospect, I think 2008 could be characterized by a cascade of realizations. I definitely got a reevaluation of who I am, who I want to be, and what I can really accomplish. I realized there are limits to what I want to do, and in order to do what I love, I have to make compromises. I realized the fleetingness of time, of opportunity. Every moment should count, and if I really want something, I have to take the initiative. Everyone is watching. I realized what it meant to distinguish between idealism and reality, between living in the moment and planning for the future. I realized the importance of spending time with people. I realized the importance of setting a proper first impression...and also the fragility of other peoples' impression of you. For the first time, being away from what I was so familiar with, what I was so comfortable in, I realized what it meant to really miss someone, I realized how good it feels to see people whom you love again, and realized, and loved, the fact that some things never change. I realized what it felt like to see things from the other side of the spectrum...
I realized that there are certain things I can't do anymore, but that doesn't mean I should let that stop me. Like my dad always says: "To everything, there are always at least 3 ways of accomplishing the same task." I do, however, have to be realistic. I realized the importance of a focus, and the importance of certain experiences. I realized that I really need to humble myself in the context of the world. Nothing comes without hard work. I gave up something in order to obtain something else: I realized the permanence of a decision. Choices are there because each has their own costs, but when you make a choice you must stick with it or never satisfy the reason you chose that path in the first place. Look forward, and learn from mistakes. Listen, and respect those who have already gone through certain things. Relationships are fragile, things that need to be nourished and attended to. This applies to both people and to God. Relationships need to be prioritized too.
In everything, nothing can be accomplished on my own.
The first step is realization. The next step is ACTION. Words are empty without any examples to back them up.
There were definitely times in 2008 where I got disillusioned, where I felt like I should just fall into something mundane and normal and follow the majority of Penn Staters. It is so easy to be affected by an environment where everyone tells me I should just relax, take it easy. However, that isn't what I was brought up to be. That isn't, at least, who I want to be. I don't want to settle for average; no, not if I can do better. In order to do better, I have to prioritize and pinpoint what I really do want to do to glorify God, to please my family, to help others, and to make the most of life. Thats why, my new years resolutions for 2009 are:
1. to love, obey, follow, and glorify Him.
2. to be more disciplined. try to improve time management and be on top of things--don't fall behind. also, don't lose focus of what you are aiming for. be more disciplined in how you take care of yourself. be more disciplined in how much time you chill out...and be reasonable about it. don't worry so much about what other people think, but of all things, prioritize. be disciplined in how much time you put into something. for a lot of things, i'm on my own discipline now. be disciplined, so i can turn into the person both my parents and i can be proud of.
3. off of the disciplined thing, to get back into shape!
4. to remember that, if I want to make a good first impression, put the work into it! more discipline.
5. to find a summer internship, or at least something meaningful for the summer.
6. to make the most of the next 1/2 of my college career!!
7. to visit people on Philly :) visit people in NJ. visit people in NY. keep in touch.
8. to appreciate the precious moments with family.
and I guess, in one year, we'll see where I stand :]
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